After this months of terrible grey and wet sky here in Portugal, today the sun is shining and the weather is really warm… and it feels like it make us awake from the depressive and lethargic state that came’s with long periods of uncolored days. I’ve always been a very much influenced by nature and weather person, and sometimes the Autumn/Winter seasons are really hard to go through, but I think we all have to learn to live with our own ghosts, isn’t it?
I thought a lot about share it or not on my blog, but then I thought that I am the way I am and my blog reflects me as a person, so… A few years ago I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. I never speak about it with anybody but my doctor, my mom and my boyfriend. And anyone else knows. I don’t know if it’s ok not talk about that, I don’t know if I should… but the truth is that most of the times I don’t have the enough confidence in myself to talk. And I always think I’m boring people with my problems… so, I prefer repress my speech and shut my mouth up. Today, maybe because the sun is shining again, I felt like I had to tell someone.
This photos were taken by my brother last summer in a party with friends and this is a big friend of mine, one of the since-ever-friends of my life, Celso. Hope you enjoy, ’cause I really loved discover this images in my archives and see how much I was doing great last year and how much this party was funny. But… the sun is shining again outside…
Listening echoes from the past,
Touching cold statues under the indifferent moon,
That turns your skin pale and your blood blue…
You’re treading the path of the heroes,
Facing the fear of the monsters…
Your feet are pursuing the joy and glory,
But in the end of the way,
all you can find is your faith…
Your natural desire of being eternal.
(outfit details: jeans – levis vintage; blouse – vintage; belt – pull & bear: sandals – dr. martens)
As I told you on this post, this year I started to build a list of all the books that I read just for pleasure, without think in my dissertation or classes or work… And I’m pretty happy with my choice of sitting more time with books than in facebook or in front of the tv and find that I read in three months almost the same that I read in one semester, last year.
It’s funny ’cause when I picked all this books from the shelves to take this picture, I realize that I’m really a weird person ’cause this is such a strange mix haha But I kind of like to read different things once I already have two permanent mandatory themes in my work life.
I’ve to say that, despite I always like every book I read, there are in this list one that I consider my favorite: Kafka on the Shore from Haruki Murakami. It’s such a strange and hypnotic story that I read it in two days… I just couldn’t stop.
Daisy Miller – Henry James The devil: reality or mith? – José António Sayés Ghosts of the Air: True Stories of Aerial Hautings – Martin Caidin The fall – Albert Camus Perry Mason: The Case of the Sulky Girl – Erle Stanley Gardner Perfume: The Story of a Murderer – Patrick Süskind Three One-act Plays: Riverside Drive/Old Saybrook/Central Park West (the portuguese title is Infidelidades) – Woody Allen Kafka on the Shore – Haruki Murakami Brisingr – Christopher Paolini Eldest – Christopher Paolini
Well, if any of you, my dear readers, had read anyone of this I would love to know your thoughts.